Tuesday, July 20, 2010 it's been a while...>*huh*.what a life.its been a while i haven't putting down my words here.after all make myself busy with all things around...1 year old.*gosh tat's a longtime since i updated my blog *thanks for the laziness gen in the system*.ahaks..updating is OTW..*not until i got some words to be share*..wink
Thursday, September 18, 2008 heres for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.> Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again.We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again.We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.This is for us.Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again.We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today.The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us.This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if."This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation.The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it.This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time."Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, and their dreams again.We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them.Here's for the time that he broke your heart again.This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt.Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station.When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the hell he was.Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry.You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.This is for those girls, who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.
For those ladies who's have nite out without me..kasian me...hahhaha..kidding..(sis i know u gonna say " ne tauk Darlene mok tido")...love u...and JUJU u better read this.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 Before I was a Mommy!!>Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on.Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do testsor give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't wantto put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure she was okay.
I had never known the warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 CHANGEEE!>It's funny how shit changes so fast! In the past 3 years it feels like i've been through more shit than I have in the past couple years. But I realized that change has to happen for a person to become stronger. Sometimes you just gotta learn how to accept it and move on and quit bitchingg.
After a while, you start to learn who your REAL friends are! Man i can't even remember how many people who i thought were friends, have came and fkn gone. And then you wanna know why we don't talk anymore.....hahhh, there's your answer, don't fkn use mee, i'm not stupid, so go waste someone else's time!
After a while, you start to learn that being loved is more than hugs and kisses everyday, noopppeee, one day you learn that after all the shit you've been through, all the old boyfriends no longer matter because they're not worth looking back at! It's amazing how after all the stupid arguments over nothing, and being mad about stupid shit, you'd do it all over agian, now there's ya a definition of loveee!
So there ya have it, when change comes at you, sometimes it's good, but trust that sometimes it can be reealll bad! The easiest thing to do is leave, and not fight for what you want, but at the same time, sometimes you just gotta take things how they are, and learn to move on...so here's to everyone that took this in anyway, shape, or form OFFENSIVEE....Eat your fkn heart outtttt!
Monday, September 15, 2008 What I’ve learned :) so far.....>What I've Learned...so far.
I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love. I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other. I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever. I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you. I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help. I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon. I've learned it's easy to move on..just hard to remember what you're leaving behind. I've learned no matter what, you can't change the past. and I've learned you have to move on no matter how hard it is..... :)
~ Me "Debbie" ~
I've never been Perfect, but neither have you.
My name is Debbie,Im once a gurl, a lady, a woman..and the best of all im A MOTHER.
~ Loves ~
I love music, chocolates, shopping, and MY BABY GURL
~ Desires ~
Go around the world - Wisdom,Knowlegde & Talent - Fame, Beauty & Fortune - Trip to Hollywood
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